Orkut...

Hey I am suddenly feeling very happy today….new energy….really don’t know how long it lasts…but as of now I am happy and rejoicing at the feeling……..No specific reasons for my happiness…

Was just visiting my Orkut account when I saw the number of scraps…18000….boy…what I have been doing :P….An instant thought “Delete all of them “….so by the time I was deleting them; Somehow I felt very nostalgic covering the journey of last 3 yrs though Orkut… I read old scraps from old friends….net friends..Strangers…school friends…initial excitement of finding old friends so suddenly…shared turmoil of college exams…sessionals…pracs…vivas…file completion… old school memories…nick names…college fests… discussion of daily college woes… crushes..placements…bday wishes…congratulatory messages…cat exam woes…best wishes from loved ones….and by joe…I suddenly felt happy….I went on deleting the scraps….reading them…wondering where are these people now…many of them have left orkut..deleted their orkut accounts...

Although I don’t use Orkut so frequently now…but I have kind of become attached to it…It was an integral part of my college life…and will always remain…..

Rain Rain come a lil more close...:)

Tipper….Tupper…..Tipper….Tupper…. It used to rain in a similar manner when we were kids….but rain had a different meaning then…sun still shines with all its fury…but playing in sun was never a problem then….winters still bring that chill…but we always ventured out to brave the cold (with all the winter clothing available in the wardrobe :P )

Weather hasn’t changed…it is still the same…trees and parks around us haven’t changed…The roads haven’t changed,…it’s We who have changed…we have busied ourselves in our own world that we have lost time to figure out things already existing…..we sit in an enclosed environ that shields us off the real atmosphere…it shuts down the outside world to us…Breathing an artificial air…we become oblivious to the fresh air that Mother Nature has for us…
Must be wondering why I am suddenly so nostalgic about nature…

Actually… It’s raining outside….and it’s been a long time since I took a relaxed breath and looked outside my room….life is so hectic sometimes…you feel suffocated ; trapped…
Looking outside today…makes me feel so fresh and energetic…

The last 4-5 months have completely drained me out of all my mental sensations…..
I used to be a person who used to rejoice at changes…but I had actually stopped responding to changing weather…..OHH gosh!! I feel I have lost so much in last few months…
Anyways thanks to an office trip…I could still connect with nature…we went to Kasauli and I enjoyed myself thoroughly…Thanks to a fortunate off the track incident...I was outdoors trekking when it was raining…I just loved the experience… J

Getting away from nature would be the worst things in this world…
I just hope that there will be more life in my life… J and that life will be more lively as life passes on…

Woman....

Have been thinking of starting again for long but could gather the will to hold the quill just this time….

So Back at writing after 6 long years….have only written for survival in these 6 yrs (to pass my exam papers J) .It dint took me long to figure out the title of this blogpost…coz the will to write came from Impressions only.

Without blabbering more on this “impressions” I would rather shoot the post directly…

To B frank I have been very much impressed by a few people around me and just thought of telling others about their courage ; their patience ; their selflessness…I mean looking at those people I really wonder at my own life..And think “God; I have so much to learn”
The thought that People can still be so great and humble at the same time; fills me with immense thirst for knowing their heart..How can they manage to be so great!!

Recently I got to know of a woman who is a manager; she has a year old daughter; got married love…managing her work and household…put in some family complications ;she is bearing the cost of her brother-in-laws kids’ education; her own household ; her own kid and her own demands… …yet she is so down to earth…sensitive and caring …she epitomizes what a woman should be…
Managing a baby with your work is altogether so demanding …..plus it becomes all the way more tough if you have to manage the finances on your own…

This particular instance makes me think about my own life…about the responsibilities which I will be supposed to shoulder as a woman…

I am in mood of venting out all what I have in my mind today only…
I know of a couple of women whose mothers- in- law…those shashi kala…bindu types…or the class of those as shown in “K” serials…they are endearing their married life with so much patience and care…working…earning…and still not happy but still caring and loving…

For the sake of what??.............For the love which drew them to marriage…or the love for their kids…responsibility towards their own parents…whom they can’t tell that they are unhappy…and that their decisions were wrong…
Fully realizing that they will be in this grind forever…their in laws are not good and not keeping well ..still they care for them..fend them like their kids…

Two days back…she told me she had won herself a travel stay at some holiday resort…she plans to take her mother-in-law with them…MIL is suffering; she is bed ridden…Can’t Do her daily chores on her own…Has got such a caring and sweet daughter-in-law….yet she is always nagging ; complaining and suspicious…and still the daughter-in-law is willing to take her to the resort..to care for her..to love her…Where on earth do these women get so big loving hearts…

Hold on…I am not against MILs as such….but just look at the greatness of a woman’s heart…
This is why a woman is a woman…hats OFF to women like them..
It’s so tough to be caring and selfless…so patient and sensitive… adjusting and yet be firm in achieving what you want…Be empathetic…
It’s so easy to be selfish and mean…be demanding and stubborn…But this is not what a woman is for…